Chasing A Nightmare

Chasing A Nightmare

Your past was a nightmare
But instead, you see it as a dream
Wishing for it to come true
Wishing to fill the spaces with the correct hue
I see you as a sadist
Or perhaps you just give it all when you love
Probably you really fell for him
But he wasn’t there to catch you
Can’t blame you for what you’re feeling
You both shared things in the past
Maybe yes, I am jealous and a little hurt
But I dare not show it
I show a smile instead of a smirk

Distorted Thoughts

Distorted Thoughts

Never did I ask for it
Never did I wish for it
It just came into my life
Like a shooting star from the heavens

It hit me on the spot
A gift but more of a curse
The feeling inside a hearse
With eyes wide open

I look for a response
All I got was a séance
Unclear and misunderstood

Not Your Ordinary Self

Not Your Ordinary Self

Mad at the world
Mad at everyone else
A jolly one when calm and normal
A totally different one when poisoned by anger

I am affected but yet I dare not show it
For to add more burden is not my intention
It is out of my vocabulary to aggravate your pains

Though you tell me to leave you alone
I remain stubborn and unmoved
For when that moment arrives that I decide to leave you
I feel that ever so familiar hole in my chest arrive
That feeling of uneasiness, how can I leave it all behind?

Though the words you say do not belong to your rational self
Somehow I feel that painful ache here in my heart
It may be hard, but still I try to understand you
It only goes to show how much I love you

Heavy

Heavy

Feeling that heaviness on my chest, depressed

Needs medication to cure this confusion

Alleviate me from the doubts

Your assurance ironically haunts me

But all I have is trust

Trust in your heart

‘Cause the possibility is high

That I’ll be left torn apart

But still I shall have no regrets

I just showed how much I care

*my best attempt to describe "that" feeling.

It's just that feeling that makes no sense at all yet it makes you smile together with butterflies in your tummy.

Metanoia?

*i didn't write this. my pen did.

Metanoia?

Maybe it’s the time to quit and hit the gates

Exit and forget, destroy the hidden wealth

What’s the use of living if we all die in the end?

Certainly I’m a confused child

Born with a crude smile

Questions with answers but are light years apart

Intuitions and man’s desires bedazzle one’s heart

Crippled and mauled by race of mankind

No man is kind; to spot one is a rare find

Prove the lines wrong, amaze my intellect

Lure me into faith, diffuse your precepts

Perhaps, and only perhaps I shall deem

Redeem thyself, maybe and only maybe

A sudden metanoia is possible perchance

Chase my ego, my pride, my arrogance

And yeah, I’ll give you a chance

Life's A Beach

Life's A Beach

An astounding view
A restraining hue
Pulls me a step back from reality at its finest

There’s nothing around
Only the seas and the clouds
The breeze cradles me into euphoria

Eyes behind shades
Closed-shut, I inhale
Breathe, detoxify, purify

Sneak into the mountains
Peep through the curtains
Show is over

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